I spend most of my life with these three girls.
Some days, we float along on our little cloud of bliss, loving each other well and loving being together, whether it is in work or play.... and I feel my heart expand with thankfulness, nearly full to bursting with love for these little creatures.
Some days, the hours fly by and peace and happiness reign in our house.
Some days, we have so much fun that nothing even seems like work.
Some days, the joys are stacked so high and thick that I can't even see past them to anything negative.
Some days, I feel like super-mom and think "hey, I've got this! I've finally figured it out!"
Some days, being a mom almost feels... easy.
BUT.
Some days, there is bickering and arguing and fighting, and I find myself driven to distraction, yearning for better wisdom to handle it and SOME PEACE AND QUIET, for cryin' out loud. why yes, this is a common occurrence of late, how did you know?? ha.
Some days, they drive me crazy and I lose all patience.
Some days, I dream of simply being alone. Even if it's only for an hour or two.
Some days (most days. EVERY day.), I falter and fall short. I realize just how much I still need to learn, how many mistakes I make, and how much I need to strive for, and I am humbled.
Some days, being home with them all day long and trying to fulfill all that is required of me as a mom, wife, and every-other-role-I-have exhausts me, fully and completely.
Some days are better than others. Some are worse. Some are wonderful. Some are downright difficult.
They are sinful. And I am sinful. Therein lie the challenges we do encounter on a daily basis.
BUT. yes, there is another but.
Each day, I am so thankful that this is what I get to do. That I have the opportunity and privilege to be with my children here in our home, to love and enjoy them, to shape and instruct them all day long. It's not always easy or fun, but I can honestly say that there's nothing else I would rather be doing.
Each day, I am aware that the moments that we have together are a blessing, and I find myself trying to soak it all up while they are still young.
Each day, even in the midst of chaos and mistakes and challenges, I claim the joy that exists in these three daughters of mine and the fact that I am their mommy.
Every single day, they make me smile.
"Behold, children are a blessing and a heritage from the Lord..."
from Psalm 127
They are. Oh, they are.
oh, talia. you encourage me so. and these pics are the CUTEST. look at your cute girls. and that sweet lil' bow in your hair :) DARLING. isn't being a momma to girls the best in the whole wide world? and i get to have 3 just. like. you. i'm sooooo excited! you make me soooo excited!
ReplyDeleteand p.s. i can't imagine you hurting a fly. or a flea. or a mouse. or some meece? but maybe a spider ;) bah. i'm funny , i know.
what a sweet beautiful post!!
ReplyDeletei feel so blessed to stay home with my girly also..it totally rocks!
how lovely your life must be with those 3 precious angels. ;-) love it. Makes me excited to be a momma some day! ;-)
ReplyDeleteYou are the sweetest mama! I love your heart. I feel the exact same things you shared here and while there are many days I'm tired and wonder what it might be like to send them to school (they'd both be gone from 8-1:50, that is almost 6 hours! What on earth would I do with all that time?!) I am so happy to have them home with me and get to love on them all day.
ReplyDeleteReading this post made me smile, laugh, tear up, and feel excitement for the days when I myself will be come a mother. Sister, seeing you as the mother you are amazes me. You're sweet, loving, godly, patient, and so wonderful. Your girls are the cutest! These pictures are so adorable! :) And I really cannot wait for the day when I become a mother and get to experience all the emotions, joys, tears, frustration, and blessings that come with it. Children are SUCH a blessing! i ♥ you
ReplyDeleteOh, how I appreciate your honesty!
ReplyDeleteSince I stay home part-time (4 days a week and ALL summer looooong. Whee!), I have days like this with just ONE!
I feel terrible when I get annoyed with him, when I know that this is SUCH a fleeting stage of life. But when you're in it? Sometimes it can be difficult to appreciate, you know?
<3
Mothering was always a joy, even with the challenges thrown in (they were more sanctifying times where I was drawn closer to the Lord! So they served their purposes;)) I have six beautiful children and one up in heaven waiting for me and her siblings which she never got to know.
ReplyDeleteDon't let anyone scare you about the teen years yet coming for you, Talia - they are blessings too when you start to see the ripening fruit of your labors.
And then when they marry godly spouses and give you grandbabies:)of which I have six!
My heart overflows and so do my eyes:)
Praise be to God for His many mercies and blessings.
"The Lord bless you out of Zion,
And may you see the good of Jerusalem all the days of your life.
Yes, may you see your children's children." (Psalm 128:5-6)